When I was six I had a chicken that walked backward and was in the Pathé News. I was in it too with the chicken. I was just there to assist the chicken but it was the high point in my life. Everything since has been an anticlimax.
[Flannery O’Connor]

Slavoj Žižek (Slovenian Marxist theorist and activist) understands you. In answer to the question, “What does love feel like?” he said:

“Like a great misfortune, a monstrous parasite, a permanent state of emergency that ruins all small pleasures.”